The ERP (exposure response prevention) continues for my OCD. The last few days (Friday, Saturday, and Sunday) were harder. One of my doctors from group asked me to do some more difficult exposures in addition to the ones I had been doing, and there were some “unexpected” challenges each of the days that messed me…
Thursday morning started with bathroom clean up and washing the underwear and later, the towels. These are typically hard chores for me. Last week, cleaning the bathrooms and doing the towels/underwear was really stressful and involved a lot of hand washing (around 10?). I didn’t do an excessive amount of hand washing yesterday and was…
I did my exposure time early on Wednesday because I went to help my friend paint again (and got multiple brown paint spots on the front of my shirt…). Each day, I’ve been setting aside some time to go around the house and sit in chairs, on couches, touch door knobs, light switches, handles, or…
A quick review of yesterday: the day started off with my bowing to a compulsion, which of course led to more compulsions. I’ve noticed that when I engage in a compulsion, something often goes wrong and leads me to freak out even more because now an even bigger mess (and more obsessions) has been created.
For the next little while, the blog will be my “accountability” platform for my exposures. For those of you just joining in, I’ve had a major “relapse” into my contamination OCD in recent weeks/months and recently went on a new medication and just started buckling down and doing exposures “seriously” again.